A year ago, this coming Monday, I woke up to a most unexpected tragedy and trial that I believe I will ever have to face. I lost my dear sweetheart. As I watched the movie, I thought about how I didn’t know how I’d ever get through this challenge, and to realize that I have made it, I made it through a whole year. I made it through death, a funeral, teaching my children about where their father is and why he is there and why God needed him more than we did. I told them we will be okay and we will make it. I don’t know how, but we just will. I made it through the long silent lonely nights, the birthdays, holidays, vacations, we must move on. I think one of the hardest was laying on the operating table while the doctors delivered my dear sweet little girl, Ashlyn Ray, knowing I was taking her away from her dad, but bringing her to come and join our family on earth so she could bring a sense of peace, joy, and happiness that our family so badly needed. And through it all, we have made it because of one Gracious Loving Heavenly Father, who hears and answers prayers, he guides and directs us, gives us courage, and helps us to be strong. He sends us ANGELS all around (PARENTS, CHILDREN, SISTERS, BROTHERS, AUNTS, UNCLES, COUSINS, GRANDPARENTS, FRIENDS, NEIGHBORS, AND WARD MEMBERS) to lift and carry us through the burdens we must bare. I am ever so grateful and in extreme debt to the Angels he has placed in our life and path to help us to make it this far! I pray constantly for strength to continue onward in faith to make it through another night, day, month, and years to come…I don’t know what I’d do without the Angels who God has sent to literally hold us up and help us make it through. I know this road isn’t over, I know it is still very long and windy, but I know that we will continue to make it!
“ I Miss My Friend, The One My Heart And Soul Confided In, The One I Felt The Safest With, The One Who Knew Just What To Say To Make Me Laugh Again, Let The Light Bac
k In, I Miss My Friend………………I MISS MY FRIEND!”
I LOVE YOU JEREMY!
2 comments:
sis - what a beautiful update to your blog. you brought tears to my eyes. Boston saw Jeremy's picture and said "sad" and got his concerned voice going which of course made me cry even more. I wish I could have the spirit of children. Thanks for sharing your feelings. You are one incredible beautiful strong woman!
You are so amazing...:) (Always were!)
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